This weekend we shot up to Missouri to be with Adam’s extended family and celebrate his cousin’s high school graduation. It was a short and sweet trip, but just long enough to feel like we were able to get away for a little bit.
The whole time I couldn’t help but think about when I graduated high school, (8 years ago!!) and what those feelings were like. What that summer-in-limbo was like, waiting for college to start but still holding onto high school memories. I can’t believe it was 8 years ago, sometimes it feels like yesterday, and sometimes it blows my mind the amount of life changes that have happened SINCE then!
- Went to college, met my best friends, transferred, met more best friends, transferred back, graduated (early too!) (2007- Dec 2010)
- Met Adam, dated all through college (Met in 2007, started dating in 2008)
- Got engaged! (2011)
- Friends got engaged and married
- Started a photography business, shot dozens of weddings, etc.
- Then we got married! (2012)
- Moved states, back to AR nonetheless! Never would have thought!
- Started new jobs
- Finally found a career I should have majored in in the first place
- Bought a house (2012)
- Adopted a dog
- Gained SIX nieces and nephews! (2009 – 2014)
- Got pregnant?! (2015)
I can’t imagine being my newly graduated from high school self again, and not know that any of these things were going to happen, or who I was going to meet, or marry, or where I was going to end up today. I couldn’t have predicted any of it, but somehow everything fell right into place, right into that dream life-plan I’d always had in the back of my mind. There are certainly a few things I’d change, but far more things I wouldn’t change, not in a million years. I almost wish I could go back to the person I was right when I started college and slap myself in the face, and tell myself how everything was going to work out, but then again, who knows how differently things may have gone had I known!
The thought of going back to that stage in life is also something I was thinking about. So naive to the future, but so FREE to do WHATEVER you want, and everything was so much FUN. I vividly still remember my first weeks of college, and how exciting it all was, and how I thought the next four years are going to drag on, and last forever. But then I blinked and it was all over, and now we’re fully fledged adults about to start a family of our own. Sometimes I just can’t even!
It’s so funny how that summer-of-limbo (what I like to call the summer before college) you think that you totally know who you are, and that you are so mature, and wise, and know what you want, and you couldn’t possibly grow into a different person over the next few years. But my how you do! You aren’t even close to the same person when you graduate as when you start school, and a few years out of school, you’re even more different. It sometimes makes me sad to think that those times are just slipping away, and getting further and further in the past. I want them to be right behind me forever, but I also can’t imagine how great life is going to be even in just a few years!
I’ve decided I’m going to live vicariously through my cousin-in-law as she goes off to the same school that we all went to, and try my best not to be slightly jealous of getting to live that journey! Can’t I just like, rewind and go back and visit my favorite moments from college??
Anyways, point being, sometimes I just can’t even believe that all of these things have happened, and 8 years ago I had no idea ANY of it was on the horizon! I feel like I spent my whole life growing up thinking and dreaming about these life changes, thinking they were so far away in the future and people our age going through them seemed so old and that it would be forever before I ever got to that stage. Oh dear. I think I might have a heart attack when it’s time for our 10 year reunion! Which we’ll take our TWO YEAR OLD TO. Mind = blown.
What are your thoughts? I’m sure we’re “youngens” and many of you are well past the 10 year mark – does it still feel weird? Do you still feel like it’s crazy how much “life” has happened?