Baby B is officially 5 weeks old, and I can’t believe it. In some ways it feels like B has been with us forever, and in some ways it feels like we were bringing B into this world yesterday. He has been such a sweet addition to our family, and I’m remembering just how fast these newborn days fly by, and how quickly my maternity leave will come to an end. I’ve got a little over 7 weeks left, and I intend to take advantage of every second of it.
When I first had A, I bonded with her right away. I was instantly head over heels for her and felt connected to her in a way that I’d never felt connected to anyone else. With B though, of course I loved him right away and have been obsessed with him since day 1, but I’ve still felt like there was just something missing. Until recently. I’m not sure what happened, maybe hormones leveled out or second-time-mom fears resided, but I’m finally feeling like B and I have bonded, and are really starting to figure each other out. He’s starting to plump up, make sweet little coo noises, and he’s just gotten so much darn cuter! I feel like my protective mama bear instincts are finally kicking back in and I’m finding myself a little teary eyed thinking about how fast he’s growing and I just want to protect him and hold him forever!
I’m a firm believer that you can’t spoil a newborn baby. Experts say to put the baby down for naps, and get them used to their crib, but I honestly just want to hold him as much as possible. They get a little bigger everyday, and these baby snuggles are once in a lifetime. I feel like I blinked and A was closing in on her third birthday. I remember holding her and just crying over her because I wanted her to stay a baby. But now that I’ve experienced every stage between then and now, I know confidently that God designed it this way for a reason and her newborn days are just a thing of the past – something to be treasured deep in my heart. I’m so looking forward to watching B go through those same stages, but this time around I’m trying to take the days slower and with more intention because I know they’ll be gone in a flash, buried back in my memories.
I sometimes get caught up in my to-do list for the day, but I’m a-ok if I get absolutely nothing done but hold B. I want to always remember the way his head smells, how silky his hair is and how it hangs down above the top of back, how he tightly grips his tiny hand around my finger, how blue his eyes are (for now!), his tiny side rolls when he curls up in a ball on my chest, his thighs, and his velvety smooth feet. My to-do list can wait, but snuggles can’t. It’s still blowing my mind how differently I feel towards B than I did A. A mother’s love for her daughter and a mother’s love for her son is truly unique, and I had no idea how true it was until I experienced it. What is it about a baby boy that is just wrecking my heart in the best way possible??
So, today we snuggle my sweet boy. Even if I have lots of things I’d like to accomplish, I’ll gladly stay in my PJ’s a bit longer, put off another shower, and snuggle you up in my arms while I pray the hours and minutes pass as slowly as possible.