If you didn’t notice, things look a little different around here. Friday night, I finally decided to update my blog design and make a few changes. I didn’t completely re-design it, but more or less did – bringing it up to 2017 in the web world. I updated my overall theme, which included things like a sticky nav, different fonts, new footer, new social icons, and overall a more modern, updated feel. I’ll go into more details in a future post if I ever get around to it – if there’s interest! I’m pleased with how it turned out, and it only took a few hours from start to finish. Hooray for change!
Lately I feel like I’ve been extra emotional around Adeline. No, not pregnant, not even close. I don’t know what it is though, I just feel like the age she’s at, is SO sweet, I just can’t even handle it. She’s just so much fun right now, and it feels like every little thing she does is so darn cute and so precious it just makes me cry like a crazy sappy hormonal person. Last week, I kept Adeline home with me twice instead of once and we just had the best time together. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not trying to sound like those SAHMs that everyone rolls their eyes at because their days at home with their kids are sunshine and unicorns 24/7 and they’re constantly floating on clouds, but, we had the BEST couple of days together last week and they made my heart so happy. They were definitely sunshine and unicorns for a few hours!
I feel like I cried more those two days together last week than I have in a long time. Is that just bizarre?? Like is that normal?? Adeline was just so sweet, like so so sweet. Is there a better word than sweet? Because she was sweeter than sweet. And it made me cry!! Like at the drop of a hat, I was crying at the most ridiculous things. She was so smiley, so giggly, so cuddly, so perfect. Of course, I was still working both these days, but she was like a dream coworker. She napped amazingly, played and played and kept herself entertained, and reminded me for the umpteen millionth time why I’m so thankful for her.
I’ve been making a list lately of things that have brought tears to my eyes and I swear she did all of these things last week. She just has this way of melting me completely! Like into a big sloppy ugly cry puddle. I don’t know if it’s because it’s the holiday season and it’s just a more emotional time, or if it’s because of the stage she’s in, or if it’s just because I’m a first time mom and experiencing all of these precious moments and my mind is just blown by the amount of love I have for her. I never want to forget how special these times are, and as much as I say I love each stage that she’s in and don’t want her to change – each day, week, month, just keeps getting sweeter. I want to be able to look back and remember…
How she carries her stuffed animals around, especially Pup Pup, and often by his ear while the rest of his body gets drug along the floor.
How she knows exactly where Pup Pup is, and will go find him if we ask, “where’s Pup Pup?” (She also knows Fox, and Lambie – we should probably go ahead and buy duplicates now!)
How she says “mama” and a part of my soul just flutters away and melts into a puddle off in fairy land. But for some reason when she’s upset or hurt she only says “mama” and “dada” is nowhere to be heard. (I’m begging her to learn dada, mainly so she’ll stop breaking my heart! At this point we just laugh because it really is comical.)
How she rolls all over Truckee, and will almost spoon with Truckee and rest her head on her tummy when she’s really tired.
How she just about turns herself inside out when she sees Adam walk through the door at night after work. The screech she lets out is precious.
How she tries so hard to climb up into her rocking chair on her own, but I usually have to help her with the final boost. I hope she always knows I’ll be there to help her.
How she brings me books to read to her, and will plop down in my lap. Sometimes she’ll walk towards me with her arms raised up in the air holding the book and it’s so adorable.
How I’ll find her back in her room babbling to herself and digging through her stuffed animal basket.
How sometimes she’ll disappear and I’ll go look for her only to find her “running” back down the hallway with Fox in hand. Like all she needed was to go grab him real quick.
How she holds up her arms when she wants to be picked up.
How she’ll run at me with the biggest open mouth grin on her face with her arms up ready to be bear hugged and picked up and spun around.
How she brings me random things and hands them to me like she’s helping me somehow.
How when she plays, she picks things up and just throws them over her head/shoulder when she’s done and not interested anymore. It is so funny, but makes such a mess!
How she’ll get up on her tippy tip toes to see something and it always makes me smile.
How she shakes her head side to side no matter if we say “noooo” or “yessss”. Still working on the proper yes nod, but it’s hilarious.
How ticklish she is and how loudly she’ll laugh. Almost a cackle!
How when she falls, and starts to cry, she automatically looks for me.
How if she’s really tired, and after her bottle, she’ll turn into me and fall right to sleep. She’s really been loving her snuggles lately.
How she’s already testing the boundaries of being told “No!” and she’ll turn around and look at me and smile and then start to do the same thing again.
How her little feet sound pattering across the kitchen floor.
How she can just bring me to tears when we’re playing together because she makes me so happy and she’s THE CUTEST THING ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET.
How she can just bring me to tears when she’s being difficult and testing my limits because she’s THE BIGGEST STINKER ON THE FACE OF THE PLANET.
She’s just the best, and I just love her so much, and if you want to gag after reading this gushy mom post then I applaud you for even reaching the end!
I’m sure people get annoyed by how many pictures I take of her, but not a single ounce of me could care. Because until you know what it’s like to love a child so much it makes you cry on a daily basis out of pure happiness, you just can’t understand. They’re only little for a tiny, tiny snippet of time, and I don’t ever want to forget a single millisecond.