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Before I Became a Mom, I Wish I’d Known…

Happy Friday! Is it just me or have these past two weeks drug on and on and on? Thank goodness we’ve finally made it, and I can’t wait to spend the weekend with my crew!

With Adeline turning 6 months old a week from today (AH!), I’ve had a lot of thoughts running through my head lately. Being a mom is tough, albeit the best job in the world, but it’s tough, and sometimes I wish I’d known a few things about myself ahead of time. These are those things…(grammar much?)

what I wish i knew before i became a mom

-That I would cry almost every night when I put her to bed. (How can another day with her be over?)

-That I would think the top of her head is the best smell in the world.

-That I would cry when she cries. (Those baby tears ya’ll, whew!)

-That I would feel my heart physically swell with love every time I squeeze her rolls and kiss her belly.

-That whenever she smiled at me it would melt me into a puddle!

-That I would be able to drop whatever I was doing at the drop of a hat the instant she needed me, and not think twice.

-That I would feel such intense feelings of both guilt and happiness, all within the same five minutes.

-That I would actually care if her bow matched her outfit.

-That I would feel full on MAMA BEAR RAGE towards anyone who insisted on shortening her name without asking me first.

-That I would both miss those first few weeks and be scared to do them again.

-That I would ask my mom and mother in law so.many.questions!

-That I would feel like I finally understood my own parents.

-That I would use the annoying “mom” voice. (Add that to the list of things I promised I’d never do…)

-That I would feel like having a newborn was the hardest thing ever. Because it is. But for some reason everyone else made it look SO easy.

-That I would have anxiety stressing about certain situations, even situations as simple as traveling and being somewhere on time.

-That I would question every single day if I’m doing the right thing.

-That I would love my husband so much more.

-That I would grieve our old pre-child life.

-That I would ever question if we were really ready for a baby.

-That I could care less that our house wasn’t clean, but the extra clutter would drive me nuts. (WHY do we have so much STUFF?!!)

-That I would catch myself saying “I can’t wait for her to…” and then stop myself because I don’t want her to age any faster!

-That I would google ALL THE THINGS. Including anything and everything surrounding baby poop.

-That I would be just a tiny bit sad when people would say she looks so much like her dad, but also love it so much.

-That I would rather spend my weekend nights curled up on the couch with a baby in my arms than out socializing.

-That I wouldn’t mind never finishing a meal or eating a meal on time.

-That even though she sleeps through the night, I still wouldn’t sleep through the night.

-That I would feel such a strong bond with her, and feel like I could never love anything as much as her.

-That it scares me to think about what kind of world she’ll grow up in. Can’t I just keep her in a bubble forever?

-That watching her sleep would sometimes be the best entertainment there is.

-That it would seem like the clouds parted, the angels rejoiced, and unicorns rained down upon us the first time she really belly laughed.

-That I would love giving her baths, and rocking her to sleep so much, even if it’s a bad habit.

-That I would miss feeling her move around in my belly. But totally not miss being pregnant.

-That I would receive so many opinions on how we’re doing things.

-That I would want so bad for my husband to “get it” – get why I worry so much, get why I cry so much, get why I feel like she’s a part of my soul.

-That I would need and CRAVE the advice from fellow mom friends.

-That a small part of me would judge other moms, even though I swore I never would, because #human and #protective.

-That the days are long but the weeks are fast, and the months are even faster.

-That I would struggle with not feeling annoyed at every stay at home I know out of jealousy.

-That the littlest, simplest moments were the best moments, and not necessarily the “milestones.”

-That I would want to hold a sign out my window while I drive to tell other drivers to pay attention, back off, and don’t you dare come anywhere near us! BABY ON BOARD!

-That the thought of her turning another month old makes me tear up.

-That I would secretly say a prayer every time I put her to bed for God to give me another day with her.

-That it would be the absolute BEST time of my life!!! (so far)

What would you add to the list?

PS The Boston Marathon is on Monday!! Who’s going to be live streaming it at work??

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    Taylor
    April 15, 2016 at 12:40 pm

    Aww, this is such a sweet post. I love your honesty in all your thoughts. I’m not a mom yet, but I am sure I will feel all of those things one day too.
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    Kristen @ Glitter and Dust
    April 15, 2016 at 1:24 pm

    I can relate to so many of these – I don’t even know where to begin. The one that really caught me was the type of world our kids will grow up in… really crazy to think about.

    I have yet to hear from anyone that my son looks like me. Everyone says he is a carbon copy of dad. This makes me happy and sad at the same time. Hopefully as he grows, some of my features start to emerge. 🙂

    Beautiful post, Sarah.
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    Susie @ SuzLyfe
    April 15, 2016 at 1:30 pm

    This is just the sweetest possible post. I hope so much to be a mom someday (soon). Thank you for this beautiful read on a beautiful Friday!

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      Sweet Miles
      April 25, 2016 at 5:06 pm

      You are so welcome, Susie. I’m so glad you enjoyed reading it 🙂

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    Jana @ Happy Wife Healthy Life
    April 15, 2016 at 2:00 pm

    So, so sweet Sarah! I can definitely relate whole heartedly to LOVING Jack’s laughs and to holding him until he’s fallen asleep at night. (I know – bad habit!) I can’t help it though, I miss him when I put him in his crib and I get emotional knowing our day together is already over as well!
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      Sweet Miles
      April 25, 2016 at 5:05 pm

      Yessss it’s the best and most heartwarming thing in the entire universe!! And even after I put her down, I will stay up late looking at pictures of her…such a mom!

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    Kylie Rose
    April 15, 2016 at 5:23 pm

    I’m totally tearing up in solidarity with you, friend! So perfect and so spot on. Xo!

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      Sweet Miles
      April 25, 2016 at 5:05 pm

      Knew you would understand!

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    Amy
    April 16, 2016 at 9:47 pm

    I’ve been reading for a while but don’t really comment- I found you through some of your training posts! Just wanted to say thanks so much for your posts on motherhood. My baby is 3 months old and I go back to work on Monday. Reading your posts is helping me get through it!

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      Sweet Miles
      April 18, 2016 at 10:34 am

      Thanks Amy! So glad you found me! Awww you can do it!! It is so hard, but I promise it won’t be as bad as you think, and you will probably enjoy getting back into the swing of things 🙂 Let me know how it goes! If you’re anything like me there will be lots of tears, but the day will fly by and you’ll be ok!!

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